Bland

I HATE looking at pictures of myself. I look like my mother. I don't want to look like her. So bland and fat-faced and big-hipped. It's not fair. I guess I can say that a million times and it still won't be fair. I love myself I really do but I DON'T WANT TO LOOK LIKE HER.

Drunk Before Dark

Jeremy & I went over to Liz's for a bbq...and I ended up being drunk by 7pm. How sad is that? I wasn't even trying..I was just having a good time and sipping my Mike's Hard Lemonade and before I know it, I've had 7...oops. We came home because they were supposed to be shooting fireworks off the pier but they were cancelled (so I didn't get to see ANY 4th of July fireworks) so we just ended up passing out at 8pm. What a wild night! *sarcasm* :D

Tomorrow I will be 19

19 is such a boring birthday...no becoming a legal adult and no legal drinking...boo.
Anyway..last week was the first week of my internship and it was crazy. 80% of the patients are spanish-speakers so a lot of the time I was communicating through horrible spanish/hand signals. But I learned soooo much and I really do enjoy my job which is a first. I got to watch a Pap smear and although I've had one..it's really strange to be on the other end of it. It was a really exhausting week but I am excited to go back in a few weeks. I am really excited to move. I can't wait until we get to Florida. I love it here but sometimes it's just too damn crowded/expensive. Plus when we get to Fla I can get a job and we can get another car. Finally!

Circus Folk

I just got back from X-Fest a few hours ago...and Panic! at the Disco was fucking awesome. No other way to describe it. Very Killers-ish but a thousand times better. And I'm secretly in love with Adam from She Wants Revenge..my tongue still hurts but that's what I get for piercing it and my throat hurts like hell from screaming and singing but it was worth it!
Becky and Erica left me today to go back to stupid Illinois...I'm sad but they left sticky notes all over my apartment with cute sayings, which made me bawl. I don't know what I did to deserve such great friends but I am definitely blessed.
I love you girls and I miss you already!!!

Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep........

I have a farkin' headache...I'm tired but I can't/don't wanna go to sleep...damn DH for his ability to fall asleep in 2.4 seconds...not fair. I should just take some Benadryl and feel fuzzy and go to sleep. What I really want is a Smirnoff Ice or a Hurricane...yummy! I'm still trying to figure out things to do with the girls when they get out here..um the beach...the beach..and the beach again! It was GORGEOUS today..and there was this tiny little boxer puppy on the beach..I wanted to steal him and take him home. I really want another furbaby to play with Mia, they would be so damn cute together..I heard it's been really hot in Da Burg..it's only like 70 here but it can stay that way because we don't have AC...:-X

Why is there a manatee at the airport?

I have been STARVING lately. Just hungry all the time. Becky and Erica aren't going to recognize me when they come to visit...I don't know what the deal is. Mmmm. I want ramen noodles. I just had a slim jim...slim jims kick ass by the way. I cannot wait until my radiography class is over in a week! I'm so bad, I didn't do any homework today..and I don't care!

400 pages

I read books and bawl. I just finished "My Sister's Keeper"..it's was beautiful. And I cry soo much and I don't know if I'm even crying over the book. Maybe I'm holding in all the things I don't cry about. But what do I have to cry about? Nothing in my life is as sad or beautiful as these books..nothing worth crying over..nothing in my life is worth crying over...it feels so good to cry..maybe that's why I read..the words are my addiction.